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(2 loners |lonely?) I wonder if anyone still reads this anymore [03 May 2009|04:45am] Okay I'm back. At 4.45am on a Sunday morning. Many things have happened since the last entry of this livejournal. I can almost mock the outcome of all my pent-up intensity. Either way, enough time has passed for me to get over all that was important during JC. I know my priorities and tastes are changing. I hate blogging. Everyone who is remotely close to me knows that I cannot express myself in words well. Obviously the Humanities Programme was never a very informed choice for me. The twists that have occured since I entered JC have been incredible. So much for going to the UK to study. Now that things are more or less sealed, I can spend the next chapter of my life settling everything that I can in Singapore before I go abroad to a foreign land. I shall conduct an exercise in recollection by writing a short paragraph on every friend or group of friends that have influenced my life ever since I started fending for myself. I think I have quite a number of people to go through, hence it'll probably take a very long time. Obviously, I will need to begin by identifying said persons/groups, which I will do immediately (which would mean in the next few months). I plan to make the paragraphs as intimate as possible without compromising on privacy. I have not become a sentimental maniac, but I have always been fond of nostalgia and reflection. I am pretty certain that some people will be rather interested with what I have to say about them too.

(5 loners |lonely?) Time to take stock [20 Aug 2008|08:17pm] Okay. I'm just a few hurdles away from the end. Great. I have come a long way since Block Test 1, can I go even further? Although the exams are looming, I am not afraid, yet I do not want to slip into a state of indifference. Only the adrenaline can pull me through this difficult period. I don't want to be crazy. But I know that given my nature, I am inevitably going to go crazy. My Dad leaves for Korea tomorrow. Will I be able to leave for Oxford? TIME FOR EXTREME MUGGING. EXTREME. EXTREME. 只许成功，不许失败

(6 loners |lonely?) [29 Mar 2008|02:37pm] I haven't listened to any rock, let alone metal in 3 months. I'm on nonstop classical music. The last time I did this, back in secondary 3 before I was exposed to rock and metal, I topped chemistry and physics and was second in class for math (of course the best were exempted). My plan is working.

(lonely?) I need Shostakovich's Symphony no. 5 and Dvorak's Symphony no. 9 [19 Feb 2008|07:01pm] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JYUdixQGF0w Rossini's Overture from "La Gazza Ladra" Claudio Abbado with the Vienna Philharmonic Orchestra (great combination as is evident from the Tchaikovsky symphonies I have)

(lonely?) Frustration, Anger, Sorrow [14 Feb 2008|01:57pm] I have sorely disappointed myself. Please...let me listen to X Japan, just for today. I'll be okay tomorrow.

(lonely?) [13 Jan 2008|01:46am] Perhaps the saddest thing about myself tonight is that I don't feel like listening to any music.

(lonely?) [30 Dec 2007|01:15am] In a futile effort to cleanse myself, I am going to listen to more music out of my Classical, Oldies, and Chinese playlists. Tchaikovsky's 4th Symphony documents a change in attitudes with regards to Fate. I want to experience it. Right now, I am just stuck in the first movement. In a letter dated 1878, Tchaikovsky said the following about the first movement - "And so all life is an unbroken alternation of harsh reality with swiftly passing dreams and visions of happiness... No haven exists... Drift upon that sea until it engulfs and submerges you in its depths. That, roughly, is the programme of the first movement." I agree with him.

(lonely?) [07 Dec 2007|07:26pm] Will be back from China at 6pm on the 21st.

(lonely?) [25 Nov 2007|04:56pm] 1. Search for a fuller (very very difficult term to define) musical experience 2. Shorter attention spans 3. Less attuned to (or is it unable to detect) nuances of music (especially in hip-hop, metal - one of the big tragedies of recent trends) Hence, greater emphasis on lyrics and visual elements. I want to listen to trance.

(lonely?) [18 Nov 2007|10:13pm] I cannot explain to you how much the scherzo of Beethoven's Eroica appeals to me. There's this energy that permeates throughout in the piece right from the p opening at the start. The trio is equally incredible with the crazy horns. As phenomenal as the first movement.

(lonely?) [16 Oct 2007|07:25pm] When you start losing faith, there's nothing like a double dose of A minor piano concertos (Grieg and Schumann). Of course I maintain Rachmaninov and Prokofiev supremacy in the area, but the efforts of the former pair are not that mediocre.

(2 loners |lonely?) [07 Oct 2007|09:07pm] It's a pity, but it is finally over.

(1 loners |lonely?) [07 Sep 2007|10:34pm] ( Bliss )

(3 loners |lonely?) [03 Sep 2007|11:28pm] Wow.

(1 loners |lonely?) [16 Jun 2007|09:35pm] The more you criticise a piece's weaknesses, the more you can't appreciate its strengths.

(2 loners |lonely?) Thank you [28 May 2007|12:34am] I really must thank everyone who came for today's concert and presented gifts of all sorts which I really must express sincere gratitude for. I must say that the flowers were really nice, the snacks were heartwarming, and the mozart shake was awesome. The best gift went to Shang Da's not so accurate (or is it) depiction of me, and I really appreciate it. Once again thank you, moments like this make a musician's tough journey worthwhile.

(1 loners |lonely?) [08 Mar 2007|08:24pm] Today my Shanghai piano teacher remarked to me that some of the notes which I played were 'not sincere'. I have yet to realise what being sincere is. Does this mean that Bach requires a greater degree of sincerity as opposed to Dream Theater?

(lonely?) [17 Dec 2006|08:24pm] I would post a joke today, if only I had a microphone.

(4 loners |lonely?) [14 Dec 2006|09:12pm] life in singapore: putrid and pitiful i'm going to name myself franz and emigrate to austria

(2 loners |lonely?) [08 Dec 2006|07:09am] Yay i'm on my annual trip to korea, back on the night of the 19th. I am awaiting the 0 degrees temperatures that I like most about korea....oh and the food is good. To Jodie: Loves you lotsssssss and don't miss me too much :):) kissesss...i'll be back in no time. To the rest of my friends: We must go out lots when I get back k. Every week must play pool :):) lolx bye

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