Byarnor

I wonder if anyone still reads this anymore

Sat, 02 May 2009 21:04:40 GMT

Okay I'm back. At 4.45am on a Sunday morning.

Many things have happened since the last entry of this livejournal. I can almost mock the outcome of all my pent-up intensity. Either way, enough time has passed for me to get over all that was important during JC. I know my priorities and tastes are changing.

I hate blogging. Everyone who is remotely close to me knows that I cannot express myself in words well. Obviously the Humanities Programme was never a very informed choice for me. The twists that have occured since I entered JC have been incredible. So much for going to the UK to study.

Now that things are more or less sealed, I can spend the next chapter of my life settling everything that I can in Singapore before I go abroad to a foreign land. I shall conduct an exercise in recollection by writing a short paragraph on every friend or group of friends that have influenced my life ever since I started fending for myself. I think I have quite a number of people to go through, hence it'll probably take a very long time. Obviously, I will need to begin by identifying said persons/groups, which I will do immediately (which would mean in the next few months).

I plan to make the paragraphs as intimate as possible without compromising on privacy. I have not become a sentimental maniac, but I have always been fond of nostalgia and reflection. I am pretty certain that some people will be rather interested with what I have to say about them too.

Time to take stock

Wed, 20 Aug 2008 13:25:24 GMT

Okay. I'm just a few hurdles away from the end. Great. I have come a long way since Block Test 1, can I go even further?

Although the exams are looming, I am not afraid, yet I do not want to slip into a state of indifference. Only the adrenaline can pull me through this difficult period.

I don't want to be crazy. But I know that given my nature, I am inevitably going to go crazy.

My Dad leaves for Korea tomorrow. Will I be able to leave for Oxford?
TIME FOR EXTREME MUGGING. EXTREME. EXTREME.

只许成功，不许失败

Sat, 29 Mar 2008 06:40:50 GMT

I haven't listened to any rock, let alone metal in 3 months. I'm on nonstop classical music. The last time I did this, back in secondary 3 before I was exposed to rock and metal, I topped chemistry and physics and was second in class for math (of course the best were exempted).

My plan is working.

I need Shostakovich's Symphony no. 5 and Dvorak's Symphony no. 9

Tue, 19 Feb 2008 11:28:55 GMT

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JYUdixQGF0w

Rossini's Overture from "La Gazza Ladra"

Claudio Abbado with the Vienna Philharmonic Orchestra (great combination as is evident from the Tchaikovsky symphonies I have)

Frustration, Anger, Sorrow

Thu, 14 Feb 2008 05:58:39 GMT

I have sorely disappointed myself. Please...let me listen to X Japan, just for today. I'll be okay tomorrow.

Sat, 12 Jan 2008 17:46:43 GMT

Perhaps the saddest thing about myself tonight is that I don't feel like listening to any music.

Sat, 29 Dec 2007 17:27:23 GMT

In a futile effort to cleanse myself, I am going to listen to more music out of my Classical, Oldies, and Chinese playlists.

Tchaikovsky's 4th Symphony documents a change in attitudes with regards to Fate. I want to experience it. Right now, I am just stuck in the first movement. In a letter dated 1878, Tchaikovsky said the following about the first movement -

"And so all life is an unbroken alternation of harsh reality with swiftly passing dreams and visions of happiness... No haven exists... Drift upon that sea until it engulfs and submerges you in its depths. That, roughly, is the programme of the first movement."

I agree with him.

Fri, 07 Dec 2007 11:28:05 GMT

Will be back from China at 6pm on the 21st.

Sun, 25 Nov 2007 09:02:42 GMT

1. Search for a fuller (very very difficult term to define) musical experience

2. Shorter attention spans

3. Less attuned to (or is it unable to detect) nuances of music (especially in hip-hop, metal - one of the big tragedies of recent trends)

Hence, greater emphasis on lyrics and visual elements.

I want to listen to trance.

Sun, 18 Nov 2007 14:15:32 GMT

I cannot explain to you how much the scherzo of Beethoven's Eroica appeals to me. There's this energy that permeates throughout in the piece right from the p opening at the start. The trio is equally incredible with the crazy horns. As phenomenal as the first movement.

Tue, 16 Oct 2007 11:27:09 GMT

When you start losing faith, there's nothing like a double dose of A minor piano concertos (Grieg and Schumann). Of course I maintain Rachmaninov and Prokofiev supremacy in the area, but the efforts of the former pair are not that mediocre.

Sun, 07 Oct 2007 13:08:03 GMT

It's a pity, but it is finally over.

Fri, 07 Sep 2007 15:01:34 GMT

1. WHAT IS YOUR FULL NAME?
Lee Kun Won (Li Jianyuan) (이건원)

2.WHAT COLOUR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING?
Blue with dark blue stripes.

3. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
We've Only Just Begun by The Carpenters

4. ARE YOUR LEGS CROSSED?
No

5. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
Salmon Rice.

6. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON WHAT COLOUR WOULD YOU BE?
The colour of sound

7. HOW IS THE WEATHER RIGHT NOW?
I don't really care...

8. LAST PERSON YOU TAlKED TO ON THE PHONE?
Jodie Sun Murong

9. FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Everything

10. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT YOU THIS?
I love Alan Tang

11. HOW ARE YOU TODAY?
Happy.

12. FAVOURITE DRINK?
I love to drink Chocolate Ice Blended from Coffee Bean

13. FAVOURITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK?
Soju

14.What is your favourite sport?
I don't want to answer this question.

15. HAIR COLOUR?
Pink please.

16.EYE COLOUR?
My current eye colour is fine.

17.Do you wear contacts?
No I don't but a lot of people do.

18. SIBLINGS?
No one around...

19.FAVOURITE MONTH?
No idea.

20.FAVOURITE FOOD?
I don't have a favourite food. I generally like Korean Cuisine however.

21. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
Secret.

22. FAVOURITE DAY OF THE YEAR
None in particular.

23. SATURDAY OR SUNDAY?
Saturday and Sunday

24. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT?
Stupid question, no.

25. DO YOU LIKE MARMITE?
Haven't tasted it, looks like crap so no.

26. SUMMER OR WINTER?
Definitely winter.

27. HUGS OR KISSES?
Hugs and Kisses, but I'm definitely needing Kisses more at the moment.

28. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA?
Chocolate and Vanilla.

29. DO YOU WANT YOUR FRIENDS TO WRITE BACK?
I don't care.

30. WHO'S MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
Nobody.

31. WHO IS LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
Everybody.

32. LIVING ARRANGEMENTS?
I would like to arrange for me to have a good life.

33. WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING?
Cryptic Codes by someone

34. DO YOU WAKE UP BEFORE YOUR ALARM GOES OFF ?
No I hardly do so unless I'm having a big day ahead.

36. DO YOU MISS BIG BROTHER YET?
Never watched it.

37. FAVOURITE SMELLS?
The smell of a girl's hair.

38. WHAT INSPIRES YOU?
Music, knowledgeable people

39. BUTTERED, PLAIN, OR SALTED POPCORN?
Buttered.

40. FAVOURITE CRISPS?
Ruffles have ridges.

41. FAVOURITE CAR?
Dodge Viper.

42. FAVOURITE FLOWER?
I'm not really fond of flowers, but blue roses are nice.

43. How MANY KEYS ON YOUR KEY RING?
Three.

44. CAN YOU JUGGLE?
No I can't lol.

45. FAVOURITE DAY OF THE WEEK?
No idea...not mondays.

46. RED OR WHITE WINE?
Red please.

47. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY?
I forgot.

48. DO YOU OWN A DONOR CARD?
No

49. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING?
Aww man another day.

50. WHAT ARE YOU GONNA DO ONCE YOU HAVE FINISHED THIS ?
Get something to drink.

Mon, 03 Sep 2007 15:28:53 GMT

Wow.

Sat, 16 Jun 2007 13:37:15 GMT

The more you criticise a piece's weaknesses, the more you can't appreciate its strengths.

Thank you

Sun, 27 May 2007 16:40:34 GMT

I really must thank everyone who came for today's concert and presented gifts of all sorts which I really must express sincere gratitude for. I must say that the flowers were really nice, the snacks were heartwarming, and the mozart shake was awesome. The best gift went to Shang Da's not so accurate (or is it) depiction of me, and I really appreciate it.

Once again thank you, moments like this make a musician's tough journey worthwhile.

Thu, 08 Mar 2007 12:30:12 GMT

Today my Shanghai piano teacher remarked to me that some of the notes which I played were 'not sincere'.

I have yet to realise what being sincere is. Does this mean that Bach requires a greater degree of sincerity as opposed to Dream Theater?

Sun, 17 Dec 2006 11:25:48 GMT

I would post a joke today, if only I had a microphone.

Thu, 14 Dec 2006 12:13:54 GMT

life in singapore: putrid and pitiful

i'm going to name myself franz and emigrate to austria

Fri, 08 Dec 2006 00:09:04 GMT

Yay i'm on my annual trip to korea, back on the night of the 19th. I am awaiting the 0 degrees temperatures that I like most about korea....oh and the food is good.

To Jodie: Loves you lotsssssss and don't miss me too much :):) kissesss...i'll be back in no time.

To the rest of my friends: We must go out lots when I get back k. Every week must play pool :):)

lolx bye

Sun, 26 Nov 2006 10:34:41 GMT

Dear Santa...

Dear Santa,

This year I've been busy!

In March I helped oliviachee across the street (6 points). In June I donated bone marrow to steelkokoro in a life-saving procedure (300 points). Last Tuesday I farted in an elevator (-6 points). Last week I stole dotslack's purse (-30 points). In February I bought porn for ericonz (-10 points).

Overall, I've been nice (260 points). For Christmas I deserve a Wii!

Sincerely,
byarnor

Metacognitive post number 2

Wed, 25 Oct 2006 15:51:32 GMT

Before I begin, I must really thank Marcus, who got me into the mood for posting this entry with a simple minesweeper game. Thank you.

Let me start off by quoting: "Sacrificed Sons 15/8 19/8 riff in F sharp"

The beauty of this riff is immense. The driving power, the intense rhythmic changes and the foreign key really makes this riff meticulously potent. As the riff is playing, I shall now comment on how much I hate my life in general.

1. Fuck the humanities programme and academics.

2. I hate the "hierachy" (as Alan Tang calls it) of teenagers.

3. I hate my peers. I depend on them, but I hate all of them. I want to be malevolent but I need support. Is there anyone who is truly altruistic?

At this juncture I must note that Alan Choo's violin tone is getting better and better everytime I hear him play.

4. Every single note that Alan plays pierces my heart and seeps into my brain, screaming out dissonant voices. My distinct failure in music performance and lack of skill makes me want to die. I have nowhere to go but to fool the musically clueless.

5. Newton once said: "If I have seen further it is by standing on ye shoulders of Giants." Well I think I am blocked by the giants.

6. Quote Castlevania: "What is a man?" My social failure is aptly demonstrated when I angst about my inability to find females, especially those which will make a big difference in my social life next year.

7. I detest my ineptness in dancing and dressing up. I also detest the systems that make teenagers emphasize the importance of these in order to be a socialite. Quote We Wear the Mask -

Why should the world be over-wise,
In counting all our tears and sighs?
Nay, let them only see us, while
We wear the mask.

If everything is stripped, we are but a raw soul.

8. This is just a post of self-reflection. Call me what you want, but it is not by my hand that I was once again given FLESH.

Thu, 21 Sep 2006 10:45:35 GMT

Fu Sinian, a leader of the May Fourth Movement, called Chinese characters the "writing of ox-demons and snake-gods" (牛鬼蛇神的文字). Lu Xun, a renowned Chinese author in the 20th century, stated that , "If Chinese characters aren't destroyed, then China will be." (漢字不滅，中國必亡。)

Sun, 10 Sep 2006 09:09:00 GMT

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Fri, 25 Aug 2006 10:19:23 GMT

HELLO FROM CAIRNS!!!!